Remembering

I remember how it was the Lord that brought me to Oceanside, I remember it was the Lord that provided me with my job, I remember it was the Lord that restored my health when I was near death....I remember it was the Lord that gave me beautiful children...I remember it was the Lord that provided for all my needs, even before I knew I had them....I remember His miracles, I remember His kindness, I remember His love....I remember that He knows me, and He knows my heart's desires....I remember He loves me and I am His...I remember the family He gave me....I remember the friends He has blessed me with....I remember His love. Now, as I face decisions, as I seek direction, when I feel things are hopeless and I don't know the way....I remember and I am no longer afraid. The Lord is my rock and my shield. He will provide the way. He will provide the means. He is the answer. I have no need to fear or doubt. I remember that I have been redeemed, forgiven and given a new life. I remember that I am a new creation, the old is gone. I remember and I am thankful. I look forward to tomorrow because the Lord is my rock and my salvation. I remember, I smile, I take on tomorrow, with assurance. I am confident because I remember.

Heart Sick

I cannot even begin to describe how heartsick I am for leaving my studio at the beach. I regret that I wanted more and that I even thought that with sacrifice I could attain it. The Clementine studio was a gift from God and with very very, deep and sorrowful regret I am sorry I gave up the very thing I loved to attain financial security, which, I may add, has alluded me. I beg for God's mercy to bring me back. Even with a small closet.  It was a place I loved. If I could only regain what I had. Lord, please have mercy. Forgive me. I rest in YOU. Pamela

Reassessing needs

I am reassessing my budget and my daily/monthly needs. To be honest, I don't know how I have survived this long. I always put the immediate needs before the long term needs. I would go without food for a new pair of shoes. STUPID!!!! Now I see that I wasn't taking care of my shelter, transportation, food, and clothing. The very things I need to survive I was sacrificing to the immediate wants. STUPID!!!!! It is time to look at things differently. God help me PLease! Show me truth and please get me back to Oceanside. Love Pamela

New Year, New Start, Rest and lucky 13

Ahhh, it is a New Year and I finally have a couple of days off of work. Yeah!!! But they are not to be spent in rest.... I've had some major financial battles and my car just broke down. Estimated charges around $600.00. Cheaper than a new car but, yeeeeouch! Seriously, its okay.  Dave Ramsey said to take care of your major 4 walls, which are: food, clothing, shelter and transportation first. So I'm a taking care of the transport part. Even though I had the day off I've been doing financial paper work, cleaning, organizing, and creating my own envelope system that works while I'm flying. So now I am exhausted. So, nighty night. I will update later......zzzzzzzzzzzzz